MUM of two Charlotte Crosby has opened up about adjusting to newborn life again.
The Geordie Shore star welcomed daughter Pixi Cecilia with fiancé Jake Ankers in January, adding to her family alongside daughter Alba Jean.
In an exclusive chat to The Sun's TV Mag, Charlotte spoke about her upcoming TV series with Paramount+ Charlotte's New Baby, which documents her pregnancy,
She said: "This one is centered around the birth of my next child.
"You're going to see the birth of Pixi, the whole lead up to it and, as it was filming, loads of things happened like the burglary which we can't obviously talk too much about.
"All of that happened while we were filming, so you literally get to see quite a lot of quite big awful times which I haven't really spoke about publicly."
In a clip for her new show on Paramount+, an emotional Charlotte opens up as she reads a letter to her unborn child.
Speaking to camera, she says: "A letter to my new baby. Oh gosh, I think I might get emotional, I don't think I can do it."
"Growing you is the greatest gift. The years leading up to this moment have been nothing short of a fairy tale, a fairy tale I never dreamed would ever be mine.
"I spent a long period of time thinking true love, just didn't exist."
Becoming a mum for a second time has been a journey for Charlotte as she shared that her pregnancy wasn't something she enjoyed, as she told TV Mag: "I don't like being pregnant. I hate, hate, hate it. I don't enjoy it at all.
"I hate everything about it. That sounds so awful to say, but I just don't enjoy it.
"I don't know whether I could go through that again because it just feels like a life sentence.
"I feel I get quite low and I’m not myself and I don't have the energy to do everything that I need to do, and I've got a lot that I need to do in life, I feel like I can't do it so that I feel like I'm a failure and I'm letting people down.
"I feel like I'm half the person I am. It's awful, I hate it."
She also explained that due to being a busy working mum, she hasn't taken a maternity leave and has jumped back into working after her daughter's birth.
Everything just worked out so perfectly. It's my most favourite phase of life. It is so rewarding
Charlotte Crosby
"Well, I work every day, I don't even take maternity, I literally was at work yesterday," said Charlotte.
"I've just started events and I've got a photography studio and I've obviously got Pepper Girls Club. So I run three different businesses, which keeps us quite busy."
Yet despite the hard parts of being a parent and difficult pregnancies, Charlotte wouldn't trade being a mum for anything.
"I've been a mum for two years and this is my first year being a mum of two. And honestly it just means the world. I absolutely love it," she said.
REWARDING WORK
"I’m the best version of myself I've ever been. I almost wish that I did it sooner, but obviously I didn't meet Jake until I met him.
"Everything just worked out so perfectly. It's my most favourite phase of life. It is so rewarding.
"It is so beautiful. It is hard, don't get us wrong, but the best things in life aren’t easy. It's just great. I just love it."
