Erika Jayne planned to QUIT RHOBH amid brutal legal firestorm and mounting Bravo pressure – star reveals emotional paralysis, total isolation and why walking away “would’ve looked like guilt” - suong

Erika Jayne — the ever-controversial star of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills — has once again sparked headlines after admitting there was a time when she seriously considered walking away from the show. Not during the initial wave of scandal, but more recently, as ongoing legal troubles continue to swirl around her and public scrutiny reaches new heights.

In a candid interview with Page Six, Erika opened up about the emotional toll of life under the Bravo microscope. She confessed that in the midst of post-divorce chaos, when lawsuits tied to her ex-husband Tom Girardi kept piling up, the pressure became almost unbearable. “There was a moment when I really thought the best thing I could do was walk away,” she said. “I didn’t know if I had anything left to fight with.”

Erika described feeling isolated, judged, and condemned — all while trying to maintain a brave face on national television. She revealed that there was a time when she wasn’t speaking to any of her fellow cast members, and filming each week felt like dragging herself through emotional quicksand. “There were days I didn’t recognize myself anymore. I was surviving, not living,” she shared.

What’s most striking is that her desire to quit didn’t surface during the peak of the Tom Girardi scandal, but much later — when she was still battling the fallout while trying to reclaim her narrative. The lawsuits may still be active, but Erika said it was the long-term emotional toll that nearly broke her. “I was stuck between two forces,” she explained. “The producers wanted drama. The lawyers wanted silence. I was in the middle trying to hold onto whatever was left of me.”

She went on to say that her decision to stay wasn’t driven by Bravo, the fans, or even the money — it was pride. A refusal to let the world think she had something to hide. “If I had left the show at that point, people would’ve assumed I was guilty. And that, I couldn’t live with.”

Now back filming the newest season of RHOBH, Erika says she’s regained some balance. The lawsuits haven’t gone away, but she’s learned how to move forward — unapologetically. “I used to cry in the shower and then walk out like everything was fine,” she said. “Now I cry, then I come out and tell you why I’m crying.”

The latest season of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills is already stirring buzz, with cast changes, shifting alliances, and a visibly more grounded Erika Jayne. But make no mistake: her edge remains. She’s still bold, still polarizing, and perhaps now more in control of her story than ever before.

“There was a time when I didn’t think I could take it anymore,” she said. “But now I know — that was the moment I needed to stand tall the most.”