Behind the cheerful smile and party-boy energy Kyle Cooke is known for on Summer House, lies a truth he’s long avoided – that sometimes, living life to the fullest comes at a cost that can’t be laughed off the next morning. And in a rare moment of emotional honesty, Kyle finally confronted the night that’s haunted him ever since: the night he got “so drunk he couldn’t remember how he got home”… and couldn’t confirm whether he crossed a line no husband should.
Appearing in a candid segment during the Season 9 reunion, Kyle addressed what many fans have speculated about for months – the night he went missing in action, leaving Amanda Batula, his wife, in the dark for hours. No texts. No calls. Just a void.
“To be honest, I don’t remember,” Kyle admitted. “I drank a lot. I remember how the night started, but I have no idea where it ended – or with who.”
That admission, simple as it seemed, landed like a gut punch. In a marriage already tested by past infidelities and fragile trust, not knowing whether he cheated wasn’t just a detail — it was an emotional bombshell. And Amanda? She didn’t cry. She didn’t scream. She simply sat in silence. And in that silence, Kyle could finally feel the weight of what he couldn’t recall.
“The thing that kills me,” he continued, “is not whether something happened or not. It’s that I made her live through a night not knowing where I was, what I was doing, or if I was even safe.”
Kyle went on to acknowledge that, behind the party façade, behind the tequila shots and dancing in the Hamptons, was a man who had never really learned to regulate his own boundaries with alcohol. He described how nights out had become a way to avoid the pressure — of work, of marriage, of being watched. But the cost of those “escapes” was always paid by the person waiting at home.
Not long before this moment aired, social media had exploded over a blurry video allegedly showing Kyle getting cozy with a blonde woman in a dimly lit bar around 1 AM. Kyle never publicly confirmed if it was him, but his reunion confession — that he doesn’t remember anything from that night — became its own kind of answer.
What Amanda has always needed, as she’s made clear in several episodes, is not a perfect husband — but a present one. Someone who, even if he messes up, has the courage to face the aftermath — not leave her alone to carry it.
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“To me,” Kyle said, “the biggest guilt isn’t what I may have done — it’s that I made her question, ‘Can I still trust the man I married?’”
He didn’t beg for forgiveness. He didn’t make promises. He just said: “I have to live with this. Whether I remember it or not, the consequences are real. And Amanda feels them — every single day.”
Summer House has seen its fair share of explosive breakups, alcohol-fueled drama, and viral screaming matches. But Kyle’s quiet reckoning with a blank space in his memory, in front of the woman who bore the weight of it, may be the most sobering moment the show has ever delivered.
Because sometimes, the most painful betrayal… is not knowing whether it happened at all.
