Jax Taylor is owning up to the effects the age gap between him and his ex-wife, Brittany Cartwright, had on their marriage.
On the June 26 episode of his podcast, In the Mind of Jax Taylor, the Bravo star discussed the nine-year age gap between him and his ex — Taylor is 45, and Cartwright is 36 — as he reflected on the collapse of their relationship, and the role he played in that.
Cartwright filed for divorce from Taylor in August, six months after they announced they'd separated and just days after he completed a 30-day treatment in a mental health facility.
Taylor admitted to being "very stubborn" in his marriage as a result of his and Cartwright's age gap.
He explained that he has "really high highs and really, really low lows," which was "very detrimental to my relationship."
"I didn't seek help when I should have, when she told me to. I didn't wanna hear it."
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"And men, I believe...are very stubborn. And I'm a very stubborn human being — I'm not wrong, she's wrong, you know?" he continued. "I never wanted to take any accountability for my actions because like I said, I'm older. I know more than you. You don't know anything."
"I had that mentality because she was a lot younger than me," he admitted. It led him to develop a "superiority complex" because he thought, "Okay, I'm the man of the family."
Taylor said he felt "afraid" to be honest with his wife during their marriage out of a fear of vulnerability.
Describing himself as "very alpha male," Taylor said, "I was afraid to talk to Brittany about a lot of things, not only because of her reactions, but as a man, I felt very vulnerable and weak."
"I just don't like to ask for help," he said, though that has changed somewhat in the last year.
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"Until my divorce, until getting sober and going to AA and going to therapy and reaching out and being like, I can't do this anymore."
"Brittany and I would have these blow-ups, huge blow-ups that would last a few days," Taylor, who shares 4-year-old son Cruz with his ex, said. "And then forty-five minutes later, 'Should we go get some food? What do you wanna do?' Like, we don't really fix the problem."
Instead, they would "just yell and scream," he recalled.
"And it would start from me. I was doing the yelling and the screaming because I don't know how to communicate well," he admitted. "I don't."